blooper reels

current mood: deckchairs and cigarettes - the thrills
"let's go to san diago, hey that's where all the kids go"
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wenyi's party photos are taking a while to load. so i'll just waffle on for a bit until then.

wenyi's party pictures

lots lots more after jump


lets go back to the last day of summer school. went out with a bang, quite quite literally. guns and explosives and shooting blanks.

all the guns we saw


a coke can after being shot at with a blank


i had a whole lot more to say about this but i got the general impression that i scare ppl off with how trigger happy i sound. i'm not like that really, just a bit of a pyro and easily excited by loud noises.

update on the asshole situation. yeah that ship's sailed baby, you ain't never getting any from me no more. freak.

now on to more recent news, and yet further examples of my lack of spine, and a head.

happy birthday wenyi!! oh and vic and sunny too.

after the old school gang dropped me like a hot cake (aaah pish you all, curfew my ass) and the measly 4 other ppl i vaguely knew abandoned me also, i had to come up with a plan. you know that fable about the weed in the river? how some tree tried to stand rigid against the current and breaks and the weed goes with the flow and somehow survives? i never agreed with that story. many a tree stands against rapid waters and many a weeds break on top of being weak, slippery and an overall hazard. well as it turns out i AM that fucking weed. and i was right. i am all of the above.

or were they reeds?

all the same i sincerely doubt that i'm completely at fault myself.

ok it's 4:51 and i'm feeling a little sick...think i'll take a little pause and finish this after a nap...

ok 12:37 the next day. ready to have another go.

i truly cannot be fucked putting the pictures up in some neat album and what nots, honestly the majority of them don't deserve it. so here's the linky and you and see all my random shots pointed down from mid air and the extreme closeups of james.

wenyi's party pictures (repeat link)

actually i'm feeling much better this morning, so i'll scrap a whole heap of crap i was going to spew. i'll save the self loathing another day.
you give a little you take a little right? i get caught up in things and give more than i wanted, but take away with nothing. thing is i'm not sure if i want anything. i guess it's going to be like this for a while. until the day he walks up to me with a girl in tow and introduces her to me as his. will there be pain? i think there just might, but after the pain, release. hopefully. until then nothing will mean all that much. i'll drift on in and out of arms listlessly and leave them all wondering in my wake. i'm a flake.

gor gor said it sounds like i'm taken advantage of and he don't like it. i'm glad you look out for me but i more than know what i'm doing and how to handle myself. i just need you to pick me up afterwards. is that ok?

now that we're on this side of jan valentines day is looming large again. and i see the curse still hasn't been broken. i live in hope.